Kindness!

Do you ever have those times where you think, "I should do something for that person." 

But then you walk away?

I have. 

Its not that I am selfish so I don't. Its usually just that I am often too embarrassed to walk up and ask if 

they need help, because what if they just say no. then i would feel stupid for asking. 

What is more stupid? being turned away, or not asking in the first place?

I have decided not asking is much more stupid. Most of the time I am not in that big of a rush that I can't take a little bit of time and help someone else out. So why don't I. From now on I will! I am making a goal to make sure that I never walk away then wonder afterwards if they really would have appreciated it. if only we all would try each day to see how we can make the world a little better in our own way.

I have wept in the night

For the shortness of sight

That to somebody’s need made me blind;

But I never have yet

Felt a tinge of regret

For being a little too kind.

Anonymous  

On a side note... Here are the pictures from my first week-ish of the clothing experiment:

Clothes!

Since coming to school I have come to a stark realization.. I have a LOT of clothing. Now before you judge me too harshly let me explain why. Around the time I was in 5th grade my parents divorced and I began to live at two houses. Originally we switched halfway through the week but then we decided to start switching just once a week. Now since the bulk of people haven't experienced this you probably wouldn't understand that life becomes a lot more complicated when you aren't always living in the same house. So my parents in order to make the transition easier realized I needed to have a pretty full set of clothing in both houses. I still would bring a few things but who really wants to pack a suitcase all the time. 

So now that I have come to school my two wardrobes are combined into one and even though I have tried to get rid of a lot of stuff my closet still is ridiculously full. SO.. I have decided to experiment.. I have decided to see how long I can go without duplicating my shirts. So here are the rules. 

1. I must never wear the same shirt until I have worn every shirt I own at least once.

2. I can duplicate accessories such as vests, scarves, and jeans can be worn more than once.

3. I must also go through my dresses, although since I don't own as many of those that will end much sooner.

4. I also should try to rotate my sweaters more. Not necessarily everyday, but mix it up a bit.

5. If there is any article of clothing that I dislike enough to refuse to wear it, or when putting it on I decide it looks absolutely wretched I must throw it out or donate it. If I don't wear it in the rotation I know I never will. 

6. I will take a picture everyday and put it on here (probably not everyday but I will eventually get them all up)

So here we go. I started this all off by going through my clothing today and getting rid of everything I know I won't wear. So wish me luck! 

PJs and such are also in the dresser...

Home Sweet Home

Okay so I realize that lately I haven't been the most faithful blogger, but I have a good excuse. You see my New Years resolution has been to start writing in my journal everyday again. My first semester I kind of fell off the wagon on that one so I wanted to get back to it. When I made this resolution I didn't realize that my blog would suffer though. So here is my resolution to fix the results of my first resolution!

So my family back home has never been to my lovely apartment here in Rexburg 

so I decided to take some pictures in order to give them and anyone else who cares to read this a little taste of Home

WELCOME!

Our living room/ Kitchen. 

The hallway where i frequently spent time last semester doing homework or
Skyping with family etc when the rest of the apartment was occupied..

bathroom with two sinks and two separate shower/toilet areas.
Very convenient for 6 girls all trying to get ready on a Sunday morning.

And lastly the lovely room I share with Micahlyn.
(my bed is the black and gray one. yes I am awfully boring haha)

Fear:

What is your biggest fear? Spiders, snakes, falling?

        
I remember when I was little I was truly afraid of my house catching on fire. Not because I was afraid for my family or anything like that. We were living in this little house in Spring Coulee and I knew we could get out. But I was concerned that if we tried to get out, we would leave my "Baby Blankie" behind.
Looking back I realize how stupid this was. I mean it was a ratty old blanket. Who cares? But for some reason this was one of my fears.

I like to consider myself pretty fearless. jumping out of an airplane seems exciting! I would love to drive a car going 200 mph just once. I love doing cheer and the thought of being flipped in the air (not that I am good enough for that yet sadly) bugs don't scare me. Okay that may seem like a lie, I scream when I first see them, but I can cope with that and squish them. Although if I were to see a giant fist sized tarantula I would probably just run...But with all these things I am not afraid of there is one thing I do fear.

fear n  1: an unpleasant often strong emotion caused 

by expectation or awareness of danger;

Take that definition and stop at expectation and you will get an idea of how I am feeling. I feel like I am sitting here not sure of where I will be going. I know what I want to do, but I don't know if it will work out. I'm scared that maybe it isn't the right thing for me to do. What if there is a flashing red sign saying :

and I am just being to stupid to see it and listen. It wouldn't be the first time so how do I know if the way I feel is real and I am pointing my life in the right direction.

I am sitting here expecting... waiting to see where life will take me. No where I will take MY life. But it is scary because where I want to go depends on whether or not someone else (a school not a person. I'm not talking about love here) wants me.

So here I am... Sitting... Waiting... Wishing I knew what would happen. Everyone tells me "Don't worry about it!" But I DO! I mean what if I don't worry about it and think that I am for sure going to get my dreams hands down no problem, then IT DOESN"T HAPPEN! I would way rather worry and think I won't get in so that way when I don't it will be more okay and if I do then I will have been hoping and dreaming for it!

The scariest part is knowing that if this doesn't work out I have no plan. I don't know what I will do next. But I do know that Heavenly Father will take care of me. There is a God and He won't just abandon us. I just need to be willing to take a leap of faith and go for it...

P.S. Any thoughts on the new blog look? I was kind of getting sick of the old one...

Unique

Okay so I know that I already posted once today, but I'm bored and obsessed with blogging and mostly reading other peoples blogs! It is so much fun and I have discovered that I really don't give the world in general enough credit...

Anyways so I have a question: How do we each figure out who we are? How are we supposed to find ourselves as individuals and not blend into the group? 

I feel like I am an individual, I participate in activities because I enjoy them. I have my own style-ish. I try to be just me, not someone else. But I have this problem. I fail at being me because I find that I like what someone else has done so much MORE! 

Not that I am unhappy with who I am, but there are times when I just look at what other people are wearing or how they are acting and I think,

"Hey that looks so cute... why am I not doing it that way?"

So what is the solution? How do I be me (the unique one of a kind version) while still being happy with that version even if it isn't quite as good as, or the same as someone else?

. . . . . 

I guess the only thing I can think of is having a bit of confidence. I can change and adapt based on what I see around me, but that doesn't mean I should discredit the ME that existed before. Sure I can glean tips from other girls who maybe are cuter or a bit more put together. But if I continue to be happy with who I am and to put in the amount of effort that makes me happy with myself then who knows... maybe there is another girl out there who is taking tips from me.

One thing I am going to try to change is putting myself out there more. 

I have a tendency to be lazy. I think yeah I am happy, that doesn't mean I need to smile and laugh all the time. But I have noticed a difference. I used to try harder to show it and you know what...

HAPPINESS IS A HABIT.

Not that I am unhappy now, but I feel like I was happier at a different level before. So I'll try this out and we'll see what happens...

DRIVE BACK TO IDAHO

A PICTURE STORY

A bright and happy start! 

Of course there were plenty of snacks 

Tara was the first to drift off into a gentle sleep :)

Car Flirting helped kill an hour 

Next it was Chrissy's turn to go...

No matter who sleeps I will remain awake. The trusty driver!! 

And one of the most crucial parts
of a road trip
TUNES!

Fighting

Have you ever been in a fight? One that seems really important and like you need to prove that you are right, or prove that you can do it? Then there are those times when I am fighting so hard and suddenly I realize my opponent isn't. The person I am fighting with... just doesn't care. Suddenly I am left feeling stupid and like I've wasted my time. but mostly i'm just left feeling like an idiot
What do you do when the person who is supposed to be fighting with you, on your side, for the same thing, just gives up? When you are both trying to reach the same goal, but then you look next to you and realize... hold on maybe they don't actually care about this goal. Maybe what you have been fighting for actually isn't worth it to them, or maybe your just not someone they want to fight with them.
well you... your right. maybe this isn't the perfect situation. maybe everything isn't organized nicely. maybe its not laid out in front of you. maybe life is hard and takes some work. maybe you need to put on some armor and decide that you will fight. that maybe for once you'll say i don't care. i will try because this does matter to me! you know what. i feel like i have been trying so hard for you and you have just been hiding behind excuses. Man up. or i will have to take you stance. i guess sometimes all i can do is give up. because i can't keep crying the same tears.
I know this post probably won't make sense to... well actually anyone really (although some will figure it out). but right now i am going to explode or something so here it is for the whole world to see courtesy of Chloe <3

ps to all who may be concerned after reading this. i promise i'll be okay. after this i am putting it behind me. life goes on and you can't dwell on anything really. this is just one of those imperfect moments that lead to perfection... (or at least i hope that is the direction i'm heading)