a sad Chloe...

Okay so I'm not one to put up sad or complaining posts because well who really wants to read sad things. But this is me kind of complaining and I'd like to apologize right off.
I am really happy to be home! being able to see me family has been great and spending time with my friends has been absolutely wonderful! But I am really sick of one thing about being here... I am sick of being alone.
I don't know if it is the stark contrast from having 5 roommates to being the only child at home and the other two people living there are at work till late all the time and have just ditched you and gone to mexico or what, but I seriously feel lonely. Its weird because I've always kind of been a "I'd rather chill by myself for a bit" kind of girl, but now I just want to be around people. I'm actually excited to start work just so I spend time talking with people. Lately my days consist of hours of piano, reading, cleaning a bit, getting ready, then spending the night alone watching movies. Its not that I don't want to go out or that I'm not trying, but I just don't know very many people here to hang out with. I know its pathetic and I need to be trying harder, but sometimes I just wish it wasn't so hard. I miss having a group of friends to hang out with that I would go and do stuff with, fun stuff.
I think it is also hard being home because I miss my boys. I'm not looking for love or romance, but there is just something about hanging out with boys that is fun! Don't get me wrong I absolutely love my girls but it would be nice to have a bit of variety. Currently all my male type friends that I was really close to are out in the mission field. I am SO proud of them. I've just found myself really missing them these past two weeks...
Okay enough complaining. I know it will get better! I know the summer is just starting and that it will be so fun! I just need to change my attitude. (that will fix things right..?)

...Jiggety Jig

I can't believe I am now home for the summer! Its weird, but good. Good because I love seeing my family and I finally get to go earn some desperately needed money, but weird because it feels like nothing has changed. And also weird because I know I am going to be here for a very long time! 

The past year I spent at BYUI was probably one of the best I can ever remember. I grew up and learned so much and just had a lot of fun with life! I wish I took more pictures that I could put up to remember everything, but sadly I am not very good at remembering to use my beautiful camera. I am officially going to make a goal to fix that this summer. More pictures!

Speaking of summer... Now that i am out of high school summer is so much longer. I don't want to just waste it away and let it go by. I mean of course I will be working, but I don't want to just sit idling the rest of my time away. So I want to make a couple goals for summer... 

1. Work out. I love the feeling when I have worked my muscles and am all sweaty and tired. I know that sounds kind of gross, but you have to admit it is a good feeling isn't it?

2. Have an amazing interview and get into the NAIT ultrasound program!

3. Work my butt off and ace physics 30 so that NAIT will want to keep me in their program.

4. Read a lot. I hate when I just waste time and watch tv. I prefer to read and improve my mind and summer is the perfect time to do that!

5. Okay I have this weird/lame ish hobby that I have done for a few years now and for some reason I absolutely love it, but I feel weird telling other people about it. I have a small little flower garden in the front of our house and I absolutely love working it and growing the beautiful bright sunny flowers in the summer. But now we are moving so I will have to leave my garden behind. This summer I would like to start another garden with more of my favorite happy flowers.

So these are a few of my summer goals. I am sure I will come up with more as the summer goes on, but who knows. I also know that one of these is only partially based on things I can control. I will do my very best to accomplish it, but I guess when all is said and done there is only so much I can do!

Voicemail how I love you!

Lately my phone has been very lonely. I don't have very many texts or phone calls. It can go hours or even days without being used other than to check the time. Not that I am trying to depress anyone about my sad life haha I'm really doing just fine without the constant vibrations.
But today I was sitting in my Book of Mormon class and I felt my phone vibrate in the pocket of my back-pack against my foot. I figured it was just a text so I ignored it (not that I would answer my phone in class anyways). Then after class, as I was walking to my next class, I decided to check it. And I found a voicemail and missed call from a number I did not recognize.

"Hi Chloe this is... from the Diagnostic Medical Sonography program at Nait. I was hoping to schedule an interview with you. If you could give me a call at ...."

Thank goodness I finally decided to set up my voicemail after about 5 months. 

So I immediately called them back and now have set up an interview. I can't believe I made it through the first step. Now I just have to get myself completely prepped and make an amazing first impression! No pressure or anything haha As of this moment I am incredibly happy. Even my two hour physics class flew by. I definitely needed this today! I can make it through anything, Do all the hard things I need to, and work off my tail through life just so long as it is interspersed with moments like this! 

pure joy