someone..

Do you ever get that feeling that you just want someone to talk to? Not just in a particular moment, but someone you can share every detail with all the time. Okay maybe not quite that extreme, but someone who knows you completely that you tell about your day and they make you feel better. Even if you weren't feeling bad before they just somehow improve whatever it was you were feeling. and it kinda helps if they are someone to cuddle with if you are sad.

Now please don't get me wrong! Girls are great! I have some of the best friends in the world who listen to me cry and whine (i apologize because i know this can be annoying), some wonderful roommates who get to hear about ultrasound far more than they would like to I'm sure, and I honestly am so so lucky because one of my best friends is my roommate and that has been such a great blessing to me right now! But with all the wonderful things about girls there is just something about a close boy. friend. not even necessarily romantically a boyfriend although that is nice haha but just having that male perspective. That someone you can feel comfortable texting randomly in the day just to see what they are doing. That person you look forward to talking to and seeing when he isn't around. that person that is the motivation for you to go out and to try and look pretty for just because it feels good. ( this is definitely optional depending on my mood ) 

Maybe I'm just a bit of a sap and silly, but that is what I love about relationships and dating, that close connection with one person. I'm not a big party-er I'm more of a one on one kinda gal and so I really love that close personal friendship. I mean having a lot of friends is great! and FUN and I have nothing against it. I just feel like nothing can really compare to feeling like there is always someone there for you who wants to hear from you just as much as you want to talk to them..

sorry no pictures with this one. but i think there are plenty to last a while hehe

What Me?

Introducing Ginger 

Obviously I have been a little off on my blogging over the summer, but I am back again and hopefully will maintain a much better posting routine.
 Rather than attempting to sum up my summer with words I tried to make an effort to take pictures in order to document some of the high lights of it. Oh and I have been moved up to Edmonton for about 3 weeks now so there are a few pictures of my house and adventures here so far :) I hope you enjoy...

On my way to work one morning I found THIS   which meant something else was soon to be part of our family..

Since she hadn't slept the night before we spent the day doing  THIS

Later on we went to the hospital and found THIS

Isn't my sister BEAUTIFUL!

Later on this summer we went to Thunder in the Valley 

It was so much fun. Minus the pouring rain that soaked everything
(including our blankets) all the way through 

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I spent A LOT of time HERE

(these are for my Nana)  

 I spent as much time as I could with my ADORABLE niece and nephew. Aren't they just the CUTEST?

We may have also had a Tea Party for Relief Society which was just a GRAND affair

We also went to the ZOO 

 AND THEN.... I MOVED.... again haha

new house

new lawn

new room 

and again 

new living room (in case your wondering it used to be a loverly coral color. many thanks to Kevin Dudley!)

My first attempt at fRencH ToasT 

unfortunately I forgot that I didn't have syrup... Nutella to the rescue! 

my massive stack of EXPENSIVE textbooks 

Our first road trip home 

Tanny Poo the trusty driver!

and a Happy Picture to BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY!! 

Hello Cyber World!!

I would like to extend an apology for not blogging in so long! For about two weeks we didn't have internet because we moved across town and changed our internet company and oh goodness it has just been a mess! Then I have been so busy with work and catching up on my lovely online class that I have not had a chance to blog. So tonight I decided I would finally set aside some time specifically just to catch up.

I feel like so much has happened! But then again I am sure it is practically nothing compared to real life, but I have had a few very exciting things happen.

1. mainly I have been working which isn't very exciting, but I am still alive and kicking so I consider that a GREAT thing. 

2. I got a calling in my ward. Second Councillor in the Relief Society. How strange is that? I mean I've only been attending R.S. for about a year. But I have to be honest I really LOVE this calling! The girls I get to work with are great and I love being forced right into the ward and trying to get to know all the girls and to serve them. It is probably the best calling I've ever had <3 

3. I kinda said this earlier, but we moved just across town, but it is great!! We have the cutest little house, both inside and out and it feels so homey and wonderful. I will truly be sad to leave it come fall. 

here's a couple pictures of the house/ my room 

in case anyone cares I ventured out in the rain just to take this picture haha

4. One of my best friends got ENGAGED last night. Oh my goodness I can't even believe it! How are we old enough to be even considering that? I don't even have a boyfriend let alone a potential marriage partner in my life yet. I love being single and a student and having control of my life not anyone else's. And yet I am so so happy for my friend! I absolutely love reading this blog of a girl I know who is married and they have to be one of the happiest couples I have ever seen! 

5. (this is the most exciting news for me even though I know that is selfish) I have been offered a place in the Diagnostic Medical Sonography Program at NAIT! for anyone who doesn't know what that means (included me about six months ago) I am going to be an Ultrasound Technologist! This is what I spent the last 8 or so months working for and am still working for because I still have to finish one class in order to keep my spot. I am nearly done I just have my final to write which means I will be studying like CRAZY!! and if that isn't good enough I get to go live up in edmonton and be with my Tannis Wilde! I have missed her so much this past year that we have been 14 hours apart and with her busy class schedule we didn't get to talk nearly enough so I can't wait to spend more time with my darling friend.

Speaking of friends... growing up is weird, but growing apart is weirder. I've been so lucky to stay pretty close to my girls this past year, but I really didn't realize how much I missed them. Then I get to spend some time with everyone, or even just a few of them and its like the chaos and noise around me that I didn't realize was there is suddenly settled. Everything just feels right, you know? And now here we are beginning this new phase of life where suddenly others become more important than the girls we have been so close to for so long. Which is how it should be. But at the same time it is weird and sad and feels a like a bit of chaos is coming into life that we won't notice, but I know when I can't handle it, they will be right there ready to make everything the way it should be.

I will always be grateful for these amazing girls in my life!

 And just because I promised pictures here is 1of the cutest girl in the world!

and did I mention that very soon we will be getting TWO more kids in our family. 2 little nephew, one in a couple days and one in a couple months! Quite excited :)

Success feels near!

Hey all (or the few who actually read this in their spare time (btw I appreciate you!))
okay so apparently my summer blogging skills are not exactly up to par and I'm sorry for that. I will truly try to improve.

Well here is a little about my life that you've missed since I've been such a slacker... 

1. I started work at the golf course (again). I know could my life be more exciting? I wake up at a ridiculously early hour (actually right now week days are only 7 am so I feel like I am sleeping in haha), go sit on a mower for 8 hours, or rake bunkers or change golf ball washer water. I know it sounds so thrilling haha last year I hated this job so I'm not really sure what motivated me to come back, but here I am and its not too bad. The best part, it is the beginning of May and I have a pretty stinking dark tan for someone who travels no where :)
2. I had my interview at NAIT. I think it went well but I am not quite sure. I answered the questions as best as I could and tried to just be me. If they don't think that I am right for their program then I guess they know better than I do and I will have to live and "find a new dream" (name that movie haha)
3. I have spent a ton of time with my sister and my niece. I don't know what it is but I just love my family so much now. Not that I didn't before mind you! but its just that now I want to see them all the time! my phone is filled with pictures of Pyper and I just can't get enough of her. Plus we have two more little boys joining our family within the next few months! I can't wait. May I just say I love being Aunty Chlo!

        I guess that is really all my life is right now... Oh and we're moving this coming week which I find absolutely "frilling!" (sorry I had a prof who said it like that and I just can't get it out of my head haha) Also I am so so close to finishing my online course! Only 5 more assignments and if I really buckle down I could probably get them done all next week! All the work over the last 4 1/2 months will finally be finished! I won't constantly have this nagging monster saying "you should be studying" I can seriously taste the relief and freedom!! Some days I just want to sing on the roof top. I probably will when I actually finish haha
(I promise to break out my camera and post some pictures soon. All I have so far is a sick comparison of my sunburned arm next to my pasty leg NOT appealing)

a sad Chloe...

Okay so I'm not one to put up sad or complaining posts because well who really wants to read sad things. But this is me kind of complaining and I'd like to apologize right off.
I am really happy to be home! being able to see me family has been great and spending time with my friends has been absolutely wonderful! But I am really sick of one thing about being here... I am sick of being alone.
I don't know if it is the stark contrast from having 5 roommates to being the only child at home and the other two people living there are at work till late all the time and have just ditched you and gone to mexico or what, but I seriously feel lonely. Its weird because I've always kind of been a "I'd rather chill by myself for a bit" kind of girl, but now I just want to be around people. I'm actually excited to start work just so I spend time talking with people. Lately my days consist of hours of piano, reading, cleaning a bit, getting ready, then spending the night alone watching movies. Its not that I don't want to go out or that I'm not trying, but I just don't know very many people here to hang out with. I know its pathetic and I need to be trying harder, but sometimes I just wish it wasn't so hard. I miss having a group of friends to hang out with that I would go and do stuff with, fun stuff.
I think it is also hard being home because I miss my boys. I'm not looking for love or romance, but there is just something about hanging out with boys that is fun! Don't get me wrong I absolutely love my girls but it would be nice to have a bit of variety. Currently all my male type friends that I was really close to are out in the mission field. I am SO proud of them. I've just found myself really missing them these past two weeks...
Okay enough complaining. I know it will get better! I know the summer is just starting and that it will be so fun! I just need to change my attitude. (that will fix things right..?)

...Jiggety Jig

I can't believe I am now home for the summer! Its weird, but good. Good because I love seeing my family and I finally get to go earn some desperately needed money, but weird because it feels like nothing has changed. And also weird because I know I am going to be here for a very long time! 

The past year I spent at BYUI was probably one of the best I can ever remember. I grew up and learned so much and just had a lot of fun with life! I wish I took more pictures that I could put up to remember everything, but sadly I am not very good at remembering to use my beautiful camera. I am officially going to make a goal to fix that this summer. More pictures!

Speaking of summer... Now that i am out of high school summer is so much longer. I don't want to just waste it away and let it go by. I mean of course I will be working, but I don't want to just sit idling the rest of my time away. So I want to make a couple goals for summer... 

1. Work out. I love the feeling when I have worked my muscles and am all sweaty and tired. I know that sounds kind of gross, but you have to admit it is a good feeling isn't it?

2. Have an amazing interview and get into the NAIT ultrasound program!

3. Work my butt off and ace physics 30 so that NAIT will want to keep me in their program.

4. Read a lot. I hate when I just waste time and watch tv. I prefer to read and improve my mind and summer is the perfect time to do that!

5. Okay I have this weird/lame ish hobby that I have done for a few years now and for some reason I absolutely love it, but I feel weird telling other people about it. I have a small little flower garden in the front of our house and I absolutely love working it and growing the beautiful bright sunny flowers in the summer. But now we are moving so I will have to leave my garden behind. This summer I would like to start another garden with more of my favorite happy flowers.

So these are a few of my summer goals. I am sure I will come up with more as the summer goes on, but who knows. I also know that one of these is only partially based on things I can control. I will do my very best to accomplish it, but I guess when all is said and done there is only so much I can do!

Voicemail how I love you!

Lately my phone has been very lonely. I don't have very many texts or phone calls. It can go hours or even days without being used other than to check the time. Not that I am trying to depress anyone about my sad life haha I'm really doing just fine without the constant vibrations.
But today I was sitting in my Book of Mormon class and I felt my phone vibrate in the pocket of my back-pack against my foot. I figured it was just a text so I ignored it (not that I would answer my phone in class anyways). Then after class, as I was walking to my next class, I decided to check it. And I found a voicemail and missed call from a number I did not recognize.

"Hi Chloe this is... from the Diagnostic Medical Sonography program at Nait. I was hoping to schedule an interview with you. If you could give me a call at ...."

Thank goodness I finally decided to set up my voicemail after about 5 months. 

So I immediately called them back and now have set up an interview. I can't believe I made it through the first step. Now I just have to get myself completely prepped and make an amazing first impression! No pressure or anything haha As of this moment I am incredibly happy. Even my two hour physics class flew by. I definitely needed this today! I can make it through anything, Do all the hard things I need to, and work off my tail through life just so long as it is interspersed with moments like this! 

pure joy