Do you ever get that feeling like you are so in control. Everything is going your way and you are on top of all the stresses of life. Then all of the sudden its a bit overwhelming and you can't get in control and life is rushing by and you are racing to keep up. You're stuck watching and you know you should be running, but instead your in a fog. Zoned out. People talking and suddenly without realizing it you have quit listening. It's like you have been dropped on your head. You were flying and suddenly wham.
Today I was literally dropped on my head during cheer. Nothing could really be done and it was probably mostly my fault, but it still didn't feel great. All fear of a possible concussion is gone now, i read on the internet and did some mini home tests and i think i'm okay so you don't have to worry. two other girls were hurt today and one even needed stitches so i consider myself lucky! still be careful out there, its a rough world...
mini rant... you know what i hate, when you do something and you then just have to wait and see what happens. so rather than stewing over it all the time you decide just to put it from your mind and not think about it. of course what do you spend all day thinking about? exactly what you decided to forget. it is the worst just sitting and waiting. knowing something is out of your hands and never really sure if you will know what is going to happen. i hate the fact that now, i have done my part and i just get to wait and see. or i will very likely just get to wait, and wait, and wait forever never knowing how the other party reacted or anything. there is nothing i can do and the ball is in someone else's court likely to never be passed back. this is tough. And i think technology has made it way worse. i am so used to instant answers, instant replies, instant information, instant boiling water (thanks to our old but wonderfully hot stove), that waiting has become something that i am not good at. i know that i will probably have to wait at least three weeks but i can't stop thinking about it and hoping that somehow i'll get what i want in two days. patience is a virtue, and i definitely do not posses it.
What are you waiting for? Why not be done and then move on. Like, "I did my part and now I don't have to worry about that any more... move on to the next task, the next big thing, the next job and just let that one be done on the list. Check, check." At this point you can't control what happens from here so now start focusing on the things that you can control -- like not getting dropped on your head!
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